Wednesday, 20 July 2005

To My dearest MobileMom,

A hint of a headache, a slight cough and tummy upset, I moan. My back hurt, my knees jammed and I complain. My pain threshold is so, so low. Am such a moaner. Thus, when I found you, I wanted to hide in shame and embarrasment. I admire your positive attitude in spite of everything that you have to endure. All those needles, scans, X-rays, proddings, medications would have sent me up the wall, round the bend and God knows where. And we are not even talking about after effects yet. It must be aweful.

Mobilemom, it has been six months since you were diagnosed with mesothelioma cancer and since then you have been sharing with us your ups and downs, the endless visits to the hospital, the treatment, the chemo, your fears, your hopes.

Your entries have been a source of information and now even though I can't spell, never mind pronounce mesothelioma, I know that it is nasty. I know that, no matter how difficult or how lousy you feel after each chemo treatent, you can come back and pour it out on to your blog and exorcise it all out of your systems. It is a kind of therapy, this blogging and it helps. You have turned your experience and your blog into an info board for all of us to understand. You even have a 'how to apply for visa' entry for those seeking treatment abroad. And for all this, I salute you.

In eight days time, you will be flying off to Australia for a major surgery on 2nd August. And my prayers go with you.

I read you all the time. There were days when I couldn’t put down any comment because I was too choked with emotions, there were days when I had to go away for a while and come back, put on a brave face and cheer you on. I am not very good when dealing with this. And I am not handling this very well either, MM.

Thus I will make this very short. When you go, please know that my prayers and that of other fellow bloggers will accompany you. We will pray for your well being. We will not pretend that we understand what you are going through but we will be around to cheer you on when you wake up from that surgery. And we want a full report on your blog about this. I dont care how incoherent it might sound, especially when you are still drowsy, but I want to know that you are okay.

Your courage, your resilience, your positive attitude and the love you have around you will see you through, Insyaallah.

Please be okay, MM, promise me that.

With lots of love and Dua's
Kak Teh


Nazrah Leopolis said...

Dear Mobile Mom,

My prayers are for you. Go with Allah.

shidah said...

mobilemom, prayers for you, inshaalllah.

Anonymous said...

Dear Kak Teh and all,

Thank you so much for your prayers, support and encouragement. Goshh, I was in tears reading your entry. I really don't know what say. I was speechless.

Thank you so much from the bottom of our hearts. My husband and I really appreciate.

As for telling your rantauan members, we really appreciate it alot. At least it would help us to find our way around when we arrive Sydney next week.

We're leaving for Sydney Thursday 28th July. We have at least 3 days to settle in. By the 1st of August, I'll be admitted to Strathfield Private Hospital. I was told that this hospital is near concorde hospital. Strathfield is suburb area in Sydney. We managed to secure an apartment in Strathfield which is about 5-10min walk from the train station.

You can e-mail me personally if you need more info. I'd be glad to let you know more. Thank you. Thank you again for everything. :)


OOD said...

Mobile Mom,
i am one of those people that frequented your spot but never left a comment. I couldnt. Reason is because i am embarassed of my own weakness, that i weep reading your cheerfulness. That i couldnt contribute more than just my silent prayers. That i wish i am strong enough to write to you and tell you that i care - as if that matters. You taught me a lot of things. Your strength and faith alone are enough to reduce me to tears. So how could i leave a comment?

I dont know your name, so i mention MobileMom everyday in my prayers. I am certain God knows who i am referring to.

Now you go Australia and get well ma'am.

OOD said...

Kak Teh,
thank you for writing this heartfelt dedication to her. You echoed what was in my mind/heart. I wouldnt be able to put it down at all, apatah lagi to do it better.

anedra said...

mobilemom-will be praying for u thru out, insyaallah! take care.

born-again drama queen said...

my love, thoughts and prayers are with you, MM..
much much love and get well soon.

Blabarella said...

I'm guilty of never having traversed MM's blog, but with this post, I definitely will. In any case, our prayers and thoughts go out to MM, be steadfast and have faith. Our prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

fokd said...

kakteh.. thanks for sharing this


I hardly know u but my prayers are with you. My Allah swt give u and yr beloved hubby strength.

Get Well soon.

p.s: Try to recite salawat as much as you can. InsyaAllah it will help.


zaireen said...

kak teh, thanks for sharing this..

MM, I have no word to offer but I am sure you'll just fine.

AuntyN said...

Mobile Mom, Insyaallah, ALLAH permudahkan perjalananmu dan speedy recovery. We know you are strong but please do not stop the Dua and being resilient.

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Hajar said...

MM, prayers for you.

Kak Teh, u put it simply and beautifully.

Anonymous said...

Dear Mobile Mom,

My prayers are with you too. Be well!


narfnarf said...

My prayers as well, are with you MM. InshaAllah.

Ewok said...

Mobile Mom,
my prayers with you.

thank you for opening my eyes to this.

Ely said...

MM, i am like kak teh. i do read ur blog entries and i get so choked with emotions.

we will keep cheering u on. u are a very brave woman. huggs

Nazrah Leopolis said...

kakteh, if you have the time, pls update even if it's just a teensy weensy bit.

Do take care. It's really rough out there.

Our prayers go with you.

meandbaby said...

Kak Teh, I found MM's blog through yours...mengenang airmata bila baca your words..touching...To prayers to you and your family and speedy recovery...

Kak Teh said...

Thank you all for joining me in wishing and praying for MM. One brave lady!!

Unknown said...


I'm another regular visitor to your blog who can't choose the right word as good as Kak Teh.

Be strong and may Allah give you the courage and spirit to continue living. Don't give up..

TQ kak teh.

MA said...

MobileMom : Be strong, and Allah will show the way.

My prayers are with you always.

Kak Teh : Hope everything is okay with you in London.

Anonymous said...

MM: My prayers are with you. May Allah protects you & give you even more strength

KT: Glad that you and family are ok. I suppose you will go off in another round of news snooping huh, take care, bawa granola bars banyak2.

Anonymous said...

Dear Kak Teh and friends,

Thank you so much for all your wishes, prayers and encouragement.
There is no words that I can think of other than to say Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.

Insya'ALLAH, i will keep all of you updated from Sydney. Thank you again everyone. Only ALLAH knows how I feel right now with all your well wishes. You made me want to keep on fighting even more than before. Thank you. Thank you everyone. Thank you from my family and all. Insya'ALLAH dengan izinNYA berkat doa you all semua. Insya'ALLAH.

Thank you again from the bottom of my heart. :)

MobileMom & Family :))

Honeytar said...

Kak Teh: Thank you for sharing this story.

Mobile Mom: With Allah's will, you WILL be strong and you WILL get better. My prayers for your good health. Take care dear...

Empty Heart said...

Kak Teh, I'm new to this blogging thingy .. but what you wrote really touched me ... makes me feel my problems are peanuts compared to the real issues out there ... whatever it is, an inspiration u r to me ..and my prayers to u too MobileMom